It survived. That is a good sign.
This is a constructive thing to do with anger and grief. Planting a tree or a garden is a way to acknowledge the frustration in a positive way.
If only we could do like the old video tapes; able to rewind and fast forward life. I wish we could rewind March 31, 2005 and there would be no need for us to be here. The trial is like rewinding and we are stuck not moving forward. If there is a resolution maybe it will help all who loved these three, and little Alex, who survived, move forward again.